Category: Essays
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Cross-generational Desire and the Fallacy of the Father Complex
What’s the adjective for ‘hooking-up-with-a-hot-man-andhis-pal-on-a-Friday-night-and-then-finally-sleeping-with-yourlong time-girl-crush-the-following-week’? I’m that. Sexually fluid. Consensually non-monogamous. And proud. One of my many sexual partners was a man I met at a literary event. The attraction between us was immediate. I was 24. He was 50 and divorced. My heart leapt when I got a notification later that evening to…
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Never Fucking A Guy Who Has A Podcast Again
His mouth was bleeding, but I was waiting for hours and hours. No no no, he texted me. * He lives underground. It’s always dark. He lets me smoke his Parliaments. I hear the rattle of the train; I wonder if he heard me outside on his stoop on the phone, drunkenly gushing to my…
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The Rush of Pain
I remember the first time I felt something other than numb grief following the death of my mother. I was in bed with “Chris,” a guy I’d been dating casually, and he spanked me hard on the ass, without warning. The rush of pain and pleasure awakened something in me. I asked him to smack…
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How I Was Cheated On In An Open Marriage…Twice
He’d chosen to not wear a condom, he told me. I stared at my husband – now ex – in shock. We were scheduled to leave later that day for Chicago, in the middle of a blustery winter, and suddenly this was happening. “This” was not him having sex with a woman outside our marriage;…
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“Twenty-Six Days”
It happens on a plane. No one has cheated. Or lied. No one has a secret. Or is screaming. There is no shatter of glass or hearts — only the cry whispers coming from aisle ten, seats B and C (middle seat, window seat). They’ve upgraded us to the emergency exit row which does offer…